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Well its been a minute now since I've blogged. I checked and the last time I blogged was June 10 and I was anxiously anticipating the homecoming of my brother Corbin. Don't worry he made it home safe and sound from South Korea and has dove head first back into the real world. Between working, coaching, family vacations, and trying to balance time with everyone and every thing I haven't been able to sit down and just blog and talk about my thoughts and life until today. Today's post came to me yesterday when I posted a Facebook status, which I rarely do. It read:
"Everyone my age is married or having babies or something. And I'm here thinking about my desire for chicken enchiladas, when I can play basketball next, and if Kobe Bryant will wear the low 9s or the high 9s this season"
- I wonder what Michelle is cooking for dinner tonight?
- Its hot I hope Bella drank her water bowls rather than trying to swim in them.
- What should I cook for dinner?
- Harmons or Sprouts for groceries?
- I bet Daryl ate a whole pack of bacon for breakfast.
- I wonder if Porsche will be in the same spot I left her at this morning. Probably.
- I've tweeted at Kobe Bryant like 100 times I wonder if he recognizes my name yet.
- In the situation of a zombie apocalypse I have no guns in my house.
- I missed that massive spot on my legs shaving. I need chemo in my life.
- True or False: Swig makes their sugar cookies with heroin. They're addicting.
- Where can I buy a Llama?
- If I had a llama I would name him... Ezsma. Like on Emperors New Grove
- I wonder how fat I would get if I ate only chicken enchiladas forever and ever.
- If dragons were real... I would want a red and black one.
- I would probably name my dragon Khaleesi... after the one and only.
- If I caught a bear cub... How would I keep it and what would I feed it?
- Vampires... They have to be real. Edward Cullen has to be real. For my sanity.
- How can I convince Michelle to let Steve get a corgi?
- If I bought them a corgi would she kill me?
- I bet Cher is drinking a Dr. Pepper right now.
So those are my thoughts on a day to day basis. I can't help but laugh because they revolve around food for the most part. Steve always says, "Sweetie you weren't fat when you were little, you were just a good eater." So y`ea whatever that means... not sure if its a compliment or not yet. Besides that though, being 24 and not married in Utah county really isn't bad at all. I actually love it. I think I definitely deserve a gold medal for making it out of BYU not married and for making it out of BYU alive at all. Lord knows it wasn't an easy road by any means. I get asked all the time "Who are you dating?" "Aren't you sad you aren't married?" "It must have been so hard watching Bronson get married first huh?" "You've been a bridesmaid like 10 times I bet you have an awesome dress collection." and the comments go on and on. Lets be honest for a moment now everyone, you get outside the bubble of Utah County and its typical that you don't get married until you're older anyways right? This whole 18 and 19 year old thing stresses me out too much. I look back to when I was 18 and I definitely couldn't imagine being married. Or really in any kind of a mature serious relationship. I was too busy playing basketball and guitar hero and trying not to fail out of BYU. So I turn 25 in about a month and a half. When Michelle was 25 she already had me and she had just popped out this yellow asian looking child we now call Bronson. Michelle got married when she was 22 so kind of older (for Utah County standards) and Steve was 26. They definitely lasted longer than most BYU kids so way to go you two! But I think, could I manage a two year old and a newborn? Yes I'm sure I could and I would do it like a champ, but am I really ready for that? No. Financially, emotionally, and mentally I'm not ready for those responsibilities. Right now my responsibilities include my job, coaching my girls, Porsche, Bella, Klaus, keeping Michelle and Steve on their toes, and doing my laundry. I mean I have 3 kids, they may not be like my little triplet cousin kind of kids, but they're kids. They still need TLC every night, they need food and toys, they need baths, and they poop everywhere. Just like babies. The only difference is they don't talk back and they aren't a pain in my you know what forever. Personally I love my life. I have a great job, I get to coach on the side, I have 3 adorable furry kids, I live with my best friends, and I live close to my family and see them everyday. Solid life I would say.
So in my head, my life is extraordinary, so why doesn't everyone else see that? I didn't realize the seriousness of how depressed these single BYU girls are and just how people view girls like me until I went to Bishop Steve's single ward on a testimony meeting day. This was 2 years ago and every girl got up and talked about how miserable she is because she 25 or 26 and not married and how she doesn't know why she can't find a husband. In my head I thought, ok you're pathetic. You have a Masters from BYU, a great job, are completely independent and you're telling me how miserable you are? I think sometimes the Mormon Culture and even better to say, the BYU culture makes you seem like an outcast if you're not married by the time you're 21. I think learning as a woman to be independent is one of the greatest things ever! I was laughing last night because Michelle got a new printer and Daryl got a pull up bar, who do they call to come set it all up... Me. In my head, you have a husband and 3 sons and you called me? I ended up doing the printer myself but I made Daryl do the pull up bar like a big girl. I think its important to learn things like that. As I was watching her attempt to do this pull up bar and asking me what acorn knuts were it dawned on me. Steve was always teaching me about sprinkling systems, how to start the lawn mower, how to change a tire, the difference between gasoline and the mixed gas with oil, and everything else that no wonder I can use power tools better than all my brothers. So I made Daryl put together her pull up bar herself and she didn't do a terrible job. I think independence is a blessing and sometimes we don't see it as one. And by we I mean single girls. I've taken advantage of my independence and I am without a doubt in my mind happy. I know if in the situation I don't get married and don't have that aspect of life that I'll still be happy because I've created a foundation of a happy life with myself. When I had cancer they told me roughly 10% of the battle is physical. Reminding myself to just keep breathing. The other 90% would be mental. Reminding myself to be happy and keep fighting and most importantly make the best out of everything. That applies to life. Make the best of it. Why be sad when you can be happy?
To wrap this up, what I'm trying to get at is I'm almost 25. I'm not married, nor am I near it. I graduated from BYU and didn't get married and you know what, I couldn't be happier. Lately I've been asked a lot about marriage and what not and you know what, at this time in my life its not a priority. Referring back to my Facebook status that started all of this there were 2 comments made that have stuck with me and really just made me feel even more at peace with my life. First was my neighbor and friend Maureen commented, "Enjoy your youth cause its the only thing you have in life that is guaranteed to age gracefully or not." I loved this! Gracefully or not we age and while I'm young I play on enjoying what I have and being happy. Not worrying about the future. Not all of us will age as wonderfully as Cher did. She's 68 and looks fantastic and can fit into her original Turn Back Time outfit (I would know because I saw her live earlier this month). The second comment made was by either my Aunt Lisa or my Uncle Gordon. Not sure which one of the wrote but both have been examples in my life from day 1 and have always given me the best life talks. They wrote, "Our own passions are what make life worth living, find what you're passionate about and let it bring you happiness, for it makes you, you." As I look at myself I never was the girl who wore make up everyday and had her wedding planned out when she was 16 and knew the diamond ring she wanted. If you were to asked me what a princess cut diamond ring looked like I would have to google it for you. I am who I am and I love it. I can count on one hand the times I've worn make up in the last 2 months. Corbin's homecoming, family pictures, the Tim McGraw concert, and Cher concert. We are who we are and we will do what makes us happy regardless of what people think and what may seem to be the popular thing to do.
So there you have it. The confessions and thoughts of an unmarried 24 year old BYU graduate. I know this post is similar to one I did previously but I mean, I think people don't realize just how awesome it is to be young and single and alive. Why not enjoy it and let the rest of the puzzle fall into place? I promise I will be a better blogger now that my summer is calming down. Couple of side notes about my personal life:
- Won the Summer Games woot woot! Gold medals for days.
- Cher is my idol. The end. Quote of the night from her concert, "I'm Cher I'm f'ing fabulous and all you have for me is a six pack of doctor pepper? I'm an icon."
- California trip to Laguna was a success! Even with Michelle on crutches.
- Family pictures turned out great. Thank you Margi!!
- Bronson and I are still the champions of 2 on 2 vs Devin and Corbin
- Fall camp starts today practically! Go cougars!
- Steve started work again after the best vacation ever. Pray for his D line they're young.
- Bronson's lover Hilary broke her leg and got surgery. Pray for a quick recovery.
- Michelle got stuck with crutches an extra 2 weeks because shes stubborn can't old still. Pray she can't get off crutches one day.
- Daryl tore her other ACL but will rehab it and still play soccer her senior year. Pray for the citizens of Provo because she just got her drivers license. She's 18 don't worry.
- Devin is well Devin and we aren't sure what he does most the time. Pray for him in all aspects of life.
- Corbin has decided to not play football and play basketball instead. We will all pray for the Gonzaga fans who are terrified at another Kaufusi on the BYU basketball team.
School starts in a few weeks so everyone enjoy their summer! If you know of any good hikes let me know. Enjoy this nice warm weather.
Alexis
